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Hi Guys, as you may have noticed I replied to a lot of postings over the last few days but wrote none of my own because SK's were gone and it was bliss, no arguing, no discomfort in my own home, no dealing with biomom, no nothing, just normality, well tomorrow they're back for a week and I'm already tense, I really wish my husband did not have joint custody. I feel bad when I say that out loud but I'm really wondering whether I'll ever truly love these kids, when they're here I really make an effort but when they leave I couldn't care they never came back, in fact, I wish they wouldn't.
I feel like I need to get body armor these days. I did receive the advance email copies from the attorney, which looked fine to me, however, I believe that my husband's ex, will probably hit the roof. I also received an email from my husband's ex, in which she tried to ream me a new hole. I'm sure you an interpret that for what it is. Two pages worth. And all that was before I went downstairs and my husband pulled off another screaming temper tantrum. I just can't take anything else. If I knew where to go, I'd be there already.
My husbands work load has gone through the roof. He often gets home around 11pm or midnight. Even on the days he comes home earlier he crashes & I'm alone even when he's here. I'm working a shift that has me leaving the house early & alas that means I need to fall asleep early.
My SS19 is to college in the day & then goes to work directly after. He usually gets home around midnight daily.
I'm not sure I can keep this up. I've got people praying for us like crazy! When I got home Monday things seemed much better. we had a great holiday and I hadn't cried since Monday!! Wow that's pretty great cause today is Thurs. So that's two days without crying.
Everything will be alright as long as I keep my mouth shut!! Just so happens that's not my strong suit...
These sd (17&14) have turned our peaceful home into an argumentative, competetive place I DREAD going home to.
My 15 year old daughter came and lived with us about 3 months ago. She failed her 9th grade year while living with her mom. Her mom says she can not control her daughter and then sends her to us. Step daughter has been in summer school for 5 weeks now and is doing great. She is a very smart girl but had no rules in her mom's house. Mom still is exposing her and her brother to all kinds of things not good for teenagers. Mom is dating a married guy, the wife found him and came over to fight, police were called and the kids all in the middle of this.
I need help. SS is being told by his mother that his dad doesn't love him or give him attention because I'm around. Add to that - she's always been (and still is) an absentee mother and the kids have never had to share Dad with a woman. They've never laid down to watch a movie with Dad and had some woman want to be there next to him. Luckily, SS has decided he doesn't want me out, like his mom had hoped, but instead wants to be smashed in between us at all times. He can't stand to let us have 5 minutes alone and throws tantrums about it. Emily - I want to sleep inbetween.
Can anybody relate... or am I being crazy?
It seems I can't do anything right for my 4 year-old SS lately. If he says something in general and I reply, he tells me, "I was talking to Daddy." Even if Daddy has walked out of the room!
Well, here's some new insight for the day....I've simply had enough. I just can't stand the position I'm in. My husband growls, throws stuff, and has temper tantrums in the evenings again. I get these ridiculous notes from his ex-wife about junk that was resolved in court years ago, only she has completed misconstrued interpretations. I get emails from her which conflict the content of the letters. My SS tells me information that my husband says isn't true. And the noise level here in the house from my husband's temper tantrums at night are so loud, that he is scaring my dogs.
My boyfriend's daughter is back from her mini-vacation with her mom. I knew it was too good to be true. I spoke to the biomom before they went on vacation and we discussed that the daughter should still have consequences from her sneaking out of the house with the boyfriend her mother so adamantly didn't want her to be alone with.
Since stepson is grounded from video games for lying to his dad, I decided to take him out and get him to practice soccer. Of course I thought I would show him some of my soccer moves.
That is when I realized......I'm getting old. I know I'm going to be sore tomorrow. It is taking all of the energy I have left to sit up at the computer and type this entry. How sad is that??!!!
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