DH talked to Puke last night and asked her when she would be coming next. She said she didn't know because she didn't think her mom would bring her. There may be some truth to this but if Puke really wanted to her mom would do it. Then it was mentioned that maybe she could make it up this summer with an extended visit. She can't stand being here for a week so I doubt she'll come for more than a couple days if that.

I had a really good talk with DH the other night. No fighting or anything. I basically took back control of situations where I am blamed and bad mouthed by BM and Puke.

I made it clear that DH is NOT to discuss me with BM ever and any "talks" DH has with Puke about me is to be done in my presence. No more talking about me behind my back. I told him that if this marriage is going to be a happy one that we need to start standing as a team with BM and Puke.

The last few days I've been walking around in a fog, nauseous, and exhausted physically and emotionally. Everyone around me is a mess so no rock to lean on.

I wake up crying, I fight back tears all day, go to bed too exhausted to cry, and I can't say how much weight I've lost. I feel like I'm grieving before she's gone.

Her and I are ready. Damn the tears!!

It seems like every week I noticed something new going on with Ms Kitty. Unfortunately nothing to give me hope.

She is no longer mobile and can only pull herself in circles so I have to move her around the house so she has a change in scenery. I bought some puppy pads which has been the best thing i could have done. I took her outside this weekend since it was so nice to enjoy the sun and all the smells. She loved it.

I think she is now blind in her right eye. She isn't able to close that eye so we have started putting eye drops in the eye to keep it moist per her vet.