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Wish I could care but I don't

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Okay, maybe I do or I wouldn't waste time posting about it.

DH and SD were estranged for a couple of years. I felt bad for DH but relished the peace and quiet and drama free times.

I used to feel like it was all my fault because I didn't try hard enough or whatever. Not anymore. DH doesn't even blame me anymore.

We still send a little something for birthdays and Christmas after brief discussion. DH always asks my opinion and I tell him go ahead, do what you want.

So finally, she calls DH. I'm happy for him, but dreading it also.

What would you do?

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DH wants to go camping for a week with his brother. DD and I are not going.

DH has asked me to prepare a week's worth of meals for them to eat like I did on the last camping trip

The one we ALL went on

I am kind of pissed that he would even ask me this in the first place

To cook a whole week of meals for a trip I'm not even going on

Am I being selfish?

I don't even know what to say

Other than please acquaint yourself with the frozen food aisle which contains lasagne, mac n cheese and Jimmy Dean breakfast items

Feel sad for my husband regarding SD

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He couldn't sleep last night so he was talking about plans for Christmas

He's taking time off and his brother might come up to see him

Somehow we got on the subject of SD

Apoarently he's been emailing or texting here and there and she never responds

I admitted that the other kids and I don't really miss her

Too much ugliness with the wedding and her in laws and just all of it

He said he didn't really miss her either because she only called or came around when she wanted something

I wonder if it's still my fault

Anybody else here hate going to Costco?

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I hate going to Costco for a variety of reasons. I hate the crowds and the piggies who block the aisles while they scarf down free samples

IDK why but yesterday at Costco everything just irritated the ever lovin phucque out of me. I got extremely bitchy and I'm normally kind of happy go lucky

Maybe I'm feeling more emotion since I got on anti anxiety meds

Maybe it's because it was just me and my husband

I honestly have no idea what set me off. Maybe it was being around my husband. After I'd been home with the kids a while I gradually calmed down

Mommy what's wrong with you?(LOL)

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Instead of the normal doom gloom and heartache I post, here's something different!

For a number of years I've had lots of trouble sleeping.

It got so bad a couple of months ago that I begged my GP for help as I'd already exhausted other remedies like herbal blends, benadryl and melatonin. God bless her she gave me a sleeping pilll.

Getting serious about our situation

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Daughter and I have first appt with new therapist today.

I was reading about California divorce and there is a law that places a lot of weight on the child's opinion after the age of 14

So my plan is to keep trying to find work, attend therapy, try and get things lined up for making our move in the middle of next year after my daughter turns 14

I did get a job but it blew out my back so the search is on again

There seems to always be some kind of reason for putting things off

Illness, holidays, fear

It's time though

Thank you

Help! Therapist and CPS

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I haven't posted in ages. IDK if any of you remember me or my story but my husband is abusive. Been married to him for almost 15 years

I am damaged. Now my daughter is damaged from being around it. He doesn't abuse her just me.

So we went to therapy the other day. Therapist said she may have to report. I'm afraid I'll lose my daughter if this happens. I feel like if they investigate my husband will look great because he can really turn on the charm and look normal when he's not abusing. Meanwhile the damaged mom can barely cope.

My daughter is starting to hate her dad

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Because of his outbursts(only directed at me)and some of his passive aggressive behaviour towards me.

Someday it's going to come to a head. He will then be angry at her too.

He can't even stand it when the cat shows me affection.

But my daughter is a complete mommy's girl because I'm the emotionally stable one.

She avoids him every way she can and it's getting very obvious.

He used to get tog with sd and ice me out.

Now he's getting iced out but I'm not doing it on purpose or egging it on like he did

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