I'm afraid I have become far too detached.

Almost like my emotions are completely dead.

I don't believe I'm depressed.

But I am so cold and clinical at times it's almost frightening.

I can let go and laugh and have fun with my bios but after years of crap from H I just feel absolutely noting.

I learned that emotion where he is concerned is nothing but a mess and it never pays off.

It doesn't pay to care.

It seems so weird to me at times.

How has it affected you? Are you totally wrecked? Has anyone from stepland caused problems at your work by spreading lies about you? (Can be anyone. Personality disordered not so DH, BM, SK whoever) Are you going to need lifetime therapy to recover? Does having a terminal illness in order to finally escape look attractive at this point?(just kidding..I think...)

Another poster had thoughts of a heart attack(SD heart attack not her own)solving everything. I haven't yet reached this point, but I can certainly understand it.

Some of the people we have to deal with are so sick and nasty.

How do they fool everyone and hold down a job without everyone finding out what they are really like?

Are they sociopaths who are very good at hiding who they really are?

Do any of you feel like you were jettisoned into a perfect shitstorm of sick dysfunctional people?

When SD FIL blocked my way and actually tried to trip me I felt almost like I'd been physically assaulted.

Does that make sense or do you guys think I'm overreacting?

I don't know what to think about grown people who behave like that itstaggers the mind.