I don't know what's going on w/me...if it's a bad case of pms or I'm seriously getting depressed again. I've been having crying jags that last few weeks....this last week and last couple days it's been worse. I wake up in middle of night crying, morning, random...I just want to lay around. Nothing seems to matter. I get mad easily, irritated, everything seems so monumental.

I feel like I've given up on being a mom, a friend, I"m not interested in anything/anyone right now.

Good heavens, another evening last night with bf venting for hours about his grievance w/his situation-his BM and kid.

Ok...so they have a divorce decree signed...the BM receives direct deposit to her account every week. She is trying to buy a house and has "told" bf he needs to come over and sign some document about what he pays in CS for addition proof of income...and the whole "it's for your daughter" bullshit line. THing is, he probably won't sign it.

BUT I call BS on it...she's up to something. We don't trust her, she's a pretty swine type of person that ALWAYS gets over on people, her exh (my bf), his parents, sales people, insurance companies, welfare fraud, you name it.

SO....both my brother/sil and my best friend/neighbor were due the same time (early May).

My sil had my baby niece on Saturday, I was not there for the birth-they BOTCHED her entirely by an unecessary induction, stopped it, restarted and of course she ended up w/a c-section-they literally butchered her birth. BUT, mom and baby are good, my niece is absolutely PRECIOUS. I saw her Sunday and can't wait to see her again tomorrow or Sat. My brother and her are doing great for first time parents-breastfeeding, holding, bonding, all of it. Just beautiful!