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Costly medication makes me more resentful

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Submitted by New_to_this on Wed, 10/10/2018 - 8:56pm

I want to know what goes on with DH's finances because in the long run it affects me, but I really just want my head to be in the sand. I just found out that one of SS's medications costs over $400 a month. That doesn't include his psychiatry and psychologist appointments or his other meds for the month. It doesn't include all the other expenses, plus his allowance, plus his activities.

Complete resentment towards SS and DH

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Submitted by New_to_this on Tue, 09/18/2018 - 12:42pm

Sorry, just a long rant.

SS14 has several mental disorders, including ADHD, depression, and suicidal ideations. I personally think the suicidal ideations are attempts to manipulate his family and I don't think he's actually thought about suicide, but that's on his parents' and his therapists to determine, I just keep my mouth shut about that stuff. I also think that he is bi-polar rather than just suffering from occasional bouts of depression, but again, I stay out of it.

How does it feel?...lol...

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Submitted by New_to_this on Sun, 09/09/2018 - 7:48am

I'm used to writing heavier posts, but this one's light-hearted...at least to me, as BM is now getting a taste of her own medicine. Lol!

BM is dating a recent divorcee who has two young children. They decided that they should live together early in the relationship for financially beneficial reasons rather than a natural progression of the relationship. I guess BM thought that having someone pay half her rent meant she had more money to blow.

Slap some sense into me

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Submitted by New_to_this on Fri, 09/07/2018 - 7:16am

So, I know I felt this way during my last pregnancy. I have a steptalk blog entry to prove it. Apparently about three months before my due date, I wrote a blog entry about fantasizing about leaving my husband. Well, I'm getting those feelings again and I'm about 4 months before my due date.

Another DH/SS Rant

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Submitted by New_to_this on Wed, 09/05/2018 - 6:48pm

Ugghhh. DH says to SS14 at the dinner table, "you're a really good big brother." What a joke. I get that DH is trying to get SS to have positive feelings about the family and about DS3, but why outright lie?? Did the therapist tell him to say stuff like this? WTF! Who knows?

I can't fake emotions for SS anymore

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Submitted by New_to_this on Sun, 09/02/2018 - 7:27am

SS14 came over for the week and of course my mood immediately sours. I'm in no way mean, but I'm definitely not happy and upbeat. DH asked me what was wrong about 15 minutes after he walked in the door. DH apparently thought I was pissed off about something specific to which I said I was not (I am just generally annoyed at the sight and sound of SS as he always immediately walks in and does stuff that annoys me). So, DH says that he hopes SS doesn't catch on that I'm not happy when he's here.

Another rant about SS

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Submitted by New_to_this on Tue, 07/10/2018 - 6:31am

SS14 is the sole bane of my existence. I'm disengaged, but cordial. Cordial, through clenched teeth because he does not do anything that he's supposed to and constantly lies about it. But, it's DH's problem and I refuse to get involved as SS is mentally and emotionally unstable and has had CPS called on DH twice. I refuse to give him any reason to make complaints about me.

Subtle Gaslighting by DH?

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Submitted by New_to_this on Sun, 04/29/2018 - 8:31pm

Probably about two years ago, I told DH somewhat jokingly about how I felt he was manipulating me in subversive ways. Like, he would ask me for my opinion about something (usually related to the skids) and my thoughts did not align with his, so he would repeatedly badger me with his logic until I would give in. Then, much later, when I’d be pissed at whatever was going on, he would say that it was all my decision, so how could I be upset. I didn't know what the term gaslighting meant, but he explained it to me that day and we joked that he was gaslighting me.

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