Maybe men handle rejection better than women, maybe I need to get therapy but I am having a hard time living like this. SD is definitely getting to me and I hate that, no way should an 18 year old hold power over my feelings but it is what it is. I can't seem to let it stop bothering me that she is ignoring me, he says just let it go, why does it affect you so much. It doesn't seem to bother him in the least bit yet i'm in tears and wondering if i should leave and give up and let her have it all.

I wrote this at 2:30 a.m. and I still can't decide if I should bother to give it to my husbands daughter or not. I'm not convinced that she will "hear" what it says. Thoughts, opinions?

I think I’m finally ready to express myself without letting my anger get in the way. It's been 2 months since you have said more than 10 words to me and I thought I’d take a moment to explain how I feel.

I knew this weekend would bring with it drama. The SD18 had asked if she could bring her half sister (9) to our home for the local fair. We said no. How could we explain that half sister is a by-product of DH's ex-wife cheating with now husband. Not to mention we don't want to be liable should anything happen to half sister. SD also wanted to bring birth brother, DH's son (15) who never speaks to us unless it's his birthday or Christmas. Of course we are the bad guys, so SD whines to grandma and grandma says "sure bring half sister and brother, you can stay here".