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Mary Poppins and my popped bubble of happiness

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Just here to vent.

A few weeks ago, I co-hosted a party. A garden party. SD16 B/M helped set up and clean up and was paid $60 for her efforts. She had a great time and socialised with my vry nice friends. There were a few kids there and she was invited to one of thems birthday party to which she said she wanted to go.

Everything seemed really great (back then). She really was a hit with my friends and she really liked them in return. She came out of her shell and we had some really great conversations.

RE-writing History - its a new class in high school

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Last night, after being kind of a jerk, SD16 B/M was wonderful and we had an interesting and fun conversation. Its like a lightbulb, how her personality changes. Is that typical teen mood swing? I wouldnt know, this is my first time going through this.

Many different topics came up, with the main theme being her sister, Feral Forger SD23. Always part and parcel of that theme is how victimized her mother Toxic Troll is. ALWAYS. And now its reached a new height (or low...)

Attendance

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So, yes I am disengaged. And yet, I STILL send Husband notifications of absences etc. Just passing info. Which Ive been urged to stop doing. So, today is the last time (I swear!) that I will do that. SD 16 B/M missed school last Friday, which I never really knew because it was Toxic Troll visitation week...and she was supposed to do drop off at school.

I just texted Husband, and let him know, but it started a thought-chain. So here it is: Regarding her Friday absence from school.

Hatred and Loathing turns into gratefullness

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Thank you everyone for your kind words and encouragement.

I have been feeling really fried and super burned out for many different reasons. 

Im turning the corner however and stress levels have gone down. SD16 was with us for two weeks instead of 1 due to SD23 having strep...and it wasnt so bad or it didnt bug me as much. I stayed home mostly. Week before last husband was really sick. He turned an ashen gray and slept a lot, even napped during the day which he never does.

Hatred and Loathing

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If you were to know me in real life, one thing you would say is I pretty much like everyone. Some more than others, but I seldome if ever hate anyone.

I hate and loathe Toxic Troll. For many many reasons.

As I was discoursing with my boss about how "some people" fake head traumas in order to collect money, it really exposed how much I absolutelly and unequicably HATE and LOATHE Toxic Troll.

She started with a clean slate. Im the second wife inheriting a toxic heap of garbage.

Call out to bio parents specifically

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Obviously I come here a lot these more recent days.

OK, is this a problem and if so how to deal with it;

1. SD16 B/M doesnt do visitation outside of her room. She ONLY comes out for bathroom breaks and food. Which is happening later and later. Is this a problem or is this normal?

2. When she does come out, for food, she comes out at 10:30 11 pm. If its leftovers or something husband cooks thats one thing, but lately its been bothering me when I cook. Its pretty much grab what you want, no thank you, and then off again.

Online School Registration

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Well, I did it. With many misgivings. Registration is all online and I have the credentials set up, and get all the emails. And even set up Husband to get the same emails.

So after guiding Sd 16 B/M through the process via text and emailing all the credentials and set ups for both parents, do you think I got at least a "thank you, I appreciate your help"??????????

Check all that applies:

Yes _______

All Right __________

Oh what an awkward conversation (sort of OT)

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I walked in on a conversation Husband was having with his longtime childhood friend and from the get-go it was intense. He had it on speaker phone so I heard EVERYTHING. His childhood friend (call him jimmy) was explaining a car repair issue, and that it was actually a job for his wife. Husband is a mechanic and often does side jobs for extra cash. Jimmy was also explaining that this was his soon to be ex wife, we shall call her sherry, and that he jimmy had caught sherry deep into having an affair. He had caught sherry, texting and calling and actually meeting someone.

Frustrated with Expectations

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Kind of like sunny with a chance of rain...I am BOTH frustrated and having expectations...and Im trying to let go of them.

We are now starting Week #3 with SD16 B/M. She went fishing with Dad both weekends so theres that, meaning at least shes not doing NOTHING. But during the week, she is pretty much just hanging in the living room or her room.

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