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Having a hard time staying away

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Submitted by justbreathe26 on Tue, 08/27/2013 - 7:14pm

I was doing so well since I last blogged on here. I had moved into my house, was starting to see someone else, well at least thinking about it and then some how he just sucks me right back in. Last weekend I had off for work and not much planned. My ex texted me to come have a drink with him. I asked him why and he said he was celebrating and that I should come and he would explain. Well it was either that or stay at home alone-so I went. I go there and the bar was full of people we both knew.

I cant believe this is still happening!

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Submitted by justbreathe26 on Thu, 08/15/2013 - 10:37am

So as I have posted earlier, I have moved out of my bf's house as I cannot handle being in this horrible situation anymore. It has been about a month and the bf just won't let go. I thought that we could still be friends because we have known each other for over six years, but I'm thinking that that just cannot happen and I need to cut him off all together. In the last month he still sends me good mornings and goodnight texts and he misses me and he still wants to make this situation work and all this. And to be honest I haven't totally stopped him of this like I should have.

Same s#&* another day

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Submitted by justbreathe26 on Thu, 07/25/2013 - 10:40am

I moved out of my bf's house a couple days ago. I told him I need some time alone to see if I really want to continue with this relationship. The BM is still horrible and his dd is really getting to me. I am at the point where I truly don't want to see her, hear about her, or need to know anything anymore. I feel like I just don't care anymore. The bf feels like I have left him all alone in this situation, and while I have, he just doesn't get how hard it is on my side of things. I get that he is going through a lot, we both are.

So frustrated!

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Submitted by justbreathe26 on Sun, 07/21/2013 - 6:45pm

So I think it has been a week or so since I have blogged last. I thought things were going okay until now. Now I know that I am going to have our ups and downs, but my patience is wearing thin these days. My bf dd12 hasn't came over in almost a month and continues to refuse to do so as long as I am around (nothing new). Last weekend wasn't his weekend, but he attempted to call his dd and spend some time with her and go to a movie and supper. I was all for it. She should spend alone time with her dad and do things alone without me.

Want to run...

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Submitted by justbreathe26 on Sun, 07/14/2013 - 9:38am

My s/o is a seasonal worker and this is his busiest time of year so I don't spend a whole lot of time with him until the weekend. He is also very a.d.d. and he can't sit still for anything and always has to be busy. Combining these two things makes it very difficult at times to spend any quality time together. Anyways, he made a comment one night about how he could get these tickets for a concert, but he didn't know if he really wanted to go or spend the money and all that, because honestly he is kinda cheap.

Towing the line...

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Submitted by justbreathe26 on Wed, 07/10/2013 - 5:12pm

I think this sounds horrible, but at least I am being honest. These last couple weeks without sd have been good. My stress level has been better and I feel there is a lot less tension in the house. SD called FH last night and asked if she could go see a movie with him on Sunday (without me of course). On one hand I was happy to see the two are making progress and going to spend some time together. I am also glad that she doesn't want me there, because right now I really don't know how I would be around her.

Can't sleep

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Submitted by justbreathe26 on Sun, 07/07/2013 - 10:22pm

Every day seems to bring new highs and lows. I had a bad day at work, but then my hubby surprised me with a lunch he made for me on my break. It was hotter than heck all day long so I thought I would till my garden and water my plants. The minute I got off of work it starts to downpour. I get home and my bf is making bbq ribs on the grill and fresh asparagus and tilled my garden for me. The rest of the night went well.

Another day, another breath

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Submitted by justbreathe26 on Sat, 07/06/2013 - 5:21pm

I have decided that I am going to stick this out because while things are bad, I can handle them and my bf is worth it. He is trying everything in his power to fix this situation and we are supporting each other through a hard time. I do not want to leave him and it really pisses me off that the ex is trying to break us up. I hate to say this and I really don't mean how it is going to sound, but I would almost stay right now just to spite her and show her that you can do what you want because I will not be going anywhere.

problems, problems, problems!

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Submitted by justbreathe26 on Fri, 07/05/2013 - 5:02pm

Hi, so I am going to get straight to the point because this is eating from the inside out. I am so stressed out and I would appreciate anyone's opinions. I have been dating a man who is a bit older than me for over 4 years. He has a 12 y/o daughter who is a wonderful and caring and quirky and the last 3 years have been great. But for the last year things have been rocky. Last Thanksgiving my bf and I decided that we wanted to get married and have more children. He sat down with his daughter and told her what our decision was and she did not take it well.