I think this sounds horrible, but at least I am being honest. These last couple weeks without sd have been good. My stress level has been better and I feel there is a lot less tension in the house. SD called FH last night and asked if she could go see a movie with him on Sunday (without me of course). On one hand I was happy to see the two are making progress and going to spend some time together. I am also glad that she doesn't want me there, because right now I really don't know how I would be around her. I know that she is 12 and none of this is her fault, but I feel hurt and frustration towards her.
Before all of this we use to have a great relationship. We would always do things together every weekend, I would help her with her homework, and she would want to spend time with me. Now I don't know what I want my relationship to be like with her. Do I just stand back when she does come back and pretend like nothing has happened? Do I take myself out of the picture and stop being the parent figure that I was to her?
I don't know what to do or how to start. I get that my bf and her should fix their relationship before I even have a chance, but at the same time I don't think she will ever want one without him pushing her to take a step.