I moved out of my bf's house a couple days ago. I told him I need some time alone to see if I really want to continue with this relationship. The BM is still horrible and his dd is really getting to me. I am at the point where I truly don't want to see her, hear about her, or need to know anything anymore. I feel like I just don't care anymore. The bf feels like I have left him all alone in this situation, and while I have, he just doesn't get how hard it is on my side of things. I get that he is going through a lot, we both are. But on the other hand his dd wants to see him and be around him and when he isn't with her he is with me or his friends or other family while i'm usually sitting home alone or doing something by myself because my family isn't as close as he is to his and most my friends live out of state or have kids and families of their own and are busy.
He doesn't get how lonely I have become and probably why i'm not okay just sitting back and waiting for something to change. He thinks things are getting better, but I haven't seen one thing to make truth of that statement. If anything things have gotten worse. He text me last night that the dd12 called him at 10pm yelling at him and he had to hang up on her. I told him to quit letting her be so disrespectful and tell her that until she can have a conversation without screaming or calling names that he wouldn't talk to her. Gosh even when i'm not in the picture he sucks me back in. I really just need a break and to get out of this situation. Things are not going to get any better. Do I really want to deal with this for the rest of my life? What happens when she graduates? I probably won't be invited to the graduation party, or has her own kids? I know I won't be let around them. There is just so much bs involved in this situation and I really don't think I have the patience or the want to be in it anymore. I am tired.