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In my own home alcoholic husband invites the neighbor over for the party last Sunday DH was going to church. He is totally unstable I can't rely on him for nothing and I am done being the victim. So I shared about the sleeping arrangements that the skids said they won't come over because they have no room I bought a bunk bed and sd16 doesnt want to sleep on the top and ss15 slept on our couch last night meanwhile myself my bd20 and gd2 slept over at my parents and theseare the arraingments again. I am waiting out front to be picked up because I don't have a car. I just want put of here again

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I got home and the house wasn't too bad the bitterness and resentment is raging in my soul it is hard to even be in my own home. I am tired of this I keep saying this but, when I finally realized my own self destruction because of the lack of love and respect it crushing the person that I am. I have been allowing it I have been reading codependent no more and it has been helping me realize the repeated behavior that I am in with this DH and skids. I just am afraid of loosing my home and of loosing period........ I am already loosing but, it looks ok from the outside...