I have decided that if this doesn't work out, i am never getting married again. I don't even think I ever want to have a boyfriend again. Relationships are too much work as it is without throwing Schildren into the arena.

OMG! DH is probably coming home Thursday! To be honest, i am getting used to him & SD being gone the past 5 days! My home has been peaceful! what is wrong with me, i've been telling him that i love him & i miss him but really....I don't! why am i willing to continue this madness? My life as a single mom, stuggling to make ends meet seems so much more attractive then living in hell w/ DH & SD!

I'm so thankful that I have all of you to come to and vent to. I'm really mad because my husband, since he went to "mommy's" house, hasn't paid his part of the rent. My marriage is a sham! If he had been really committed to me we would've merged our money when we first got married. He didn't want to do that because he thought that I was a gold digger. I know that's what he thought. And a lot of his mail, bank account info, bills, etc. still goes to his mother's house. So what if he's the one out of the hundred men who show up for marriage counseling.

Hebrews 12
God Disciplines His Sons
1Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. 2Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. 3Consider him who endured such opposition from sinful men, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.