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I felt no alternative but to give him the worst ultimatum

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Submitted by Kiby on Mon, 12/20/2010 - 11:02am

I'm on the verge of leaving DH and returning to England (from Canada). I don't want to leave DH or the dogs, but can't stand living with SD on an ongoing basis. Whilst she's a good kid compared to most, living with DH and SD is proving too much of a challenge for me. When she's not there, DH and I get on brilliantly, when she is there we don't. Lots of reasons, no one particularly at fault - just lots of little things that now amount to one big thing for me.

I don't like myself anymore.

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Submitted by Kiby on Tue, 12/29/2009 - 7:48am

I used to like myself and I try to live a kind and fair life. I believe in 'The Power of Now' and such like, yet I just can't seem to get my head around being loving to my SD16. She is actually a very good kid. I just hate living with her. Petty little things become big issues that I can't seem to get past. I just grit my teeth and try not to think about them. I rarely try to find a solution to the little irritations now as that just seemed to make things worse.

I know I should be able to change the way I see things and I'd be much happier if I did.

Just when I thought it couldn't get any worse!

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Submitted by Kiby on Tue, 12/22/2009 - 7:15pm

Then SD16 tells me BM is thinking of coming to Canada next Christmas. She is currently living in Italy. SD hasn't seen BM for over a year now as BM can't afford the airfare and/or time - despite the profit she made from the sale of her house - apparently she needs that for new house etc.

She is talking of renting a cottage nearby.

I just said that it would be cheaper for her to pay for SD to visit her.