You are here

HeatherM's Blog

Anticipation

HeatherM's picture

Well we’ve been without SS for 3 weeks now. I’m heading out on holidays with my BS and BD for a week. SS and Us are flying home at the same time, and I’m already irritated! I should be missing him or something shouldn’t I? But, I know how it’s going to be. He’s flying in with his Grandma who will be staying with us a few days. Grandparents treat him as though he is still an infant. I know my first week home from holidays will be to deal with him, and try to get him back to where he was prior to the trip. I’m just not up for it I guess.

I have to say something very MEAN

HeatherM's picture

but I just have to say it.. because there is no one else I can say it too... except my mother! haha. I just had family photo's done (kids only)... and it cost me a million dollars (obviously an exaggeration)... but anyways... so I see the proofs and well I just have two of the most gorgeous kids ever... my BS 12 and my BD 1... and then I see the proofs of SS 7.5 and I just don't want any of them because he is just NOT cute and looks like his mother... and needs a hair cut...and man... I know this is mean... But like so I'm thinking... this is costing me a million dollars..

Annoyed

HeatherM's picture

So, I'm annoyed for no reason right now... I'm just annoyed..and what better place to share this than here...

My SS7.5 has been on holidays with his mom for 2 weeks, (in a different province), and will be spending another 2 weeks there with his Grandmother (DH's mother). I'm ecstatic about this of course, because I am so enjoying the month off from being a stepmother. SS called on Sunday because he misses his dad, I get this... and then he calls last night again..because he misses his dad... ok.. but it's the conversation I think that just annoys me..

Hmmmm

HeatherM's picture

Ok...so I tried to come up with a list of 10 things I like about my SS. I quickly shortened it down to 5 things, because I came up with 1 thing...

-1- Imaginative

I feel terrible, I mean how can I not like at least 5 things about a child who has been in my life for 5 years? I can easily come up with 10 things I do not like

I've been thinking

HeatherM's picture

I'm not sure why I hate BM so much. We always have pleasant conversations etc... when I think of her however I cringe... I've been reading a lot of posts on here, and she doesn't sound as bad as some of the BM's I've read about... but here we go, these are the reasons I think I hate her:

I'm an idiot

HeatherM's picture

So... we just finished having a really crappy week with the kids.. my son, and his son. AND I was really looking forward to a week of peace (doesn't help that my daugther is getting her molars..so I'm also working on miniscule sleep)... so what do I do? Well I hear that SS's mother is away on business next week until Thursday, and I think to myself again??? She is always sooo busy? I mean she's got 4 kids and she never see's them. Luckily for her they are from 4 different dads..so guess she can farm them out whenever... but anyways... Ok..so I hear this..

Being a Step-mother is much harder than being a mother!

HeatherM's picture

I have a son who is 12 from my first marriage, and a daugther who is 1 from my current marriage. I have been with my husband since his son was 3, and now he is almost 8. He does not remember a time when his parents where together... but silly me made him a scrapbook, which has seemed to dredge up fabricated memories and fantasies of his life with "Mommy & Daddy". I get all this. I was a step-kid once. So... I'm struggling with the feelings I have for him. At first I tried really hard to just be his friend, we'd do crafts etc.

Pages