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Someone Slap Me! I'm Going 'Cray-Cray'!

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Submitted by Fading on Thu, 01/24/2013 - 4:49pm

Oh mylanta...I hate that facking word...cray-cray? Really? Someone slap me for using it...twice...

Whoany, I have been just lurking recently. Ya know wallowing in my own disgusting misery and loling at 2nd generation Jessica Simpson stories and hot firemen vs woman who just woke up tales. However, I also read the 'newbie' posts and something has me REALLY FACKING WORRIED.

Why in the sam-hell do so many of us 'freshies' (I was one once too, don't be offended) think we are REQUIRED to like/love our stepchildren? Truth is, YOU AIN'T! You don't have to love em like you own em. You don't have to LIKE them, they aren't a Facebook status. Not going to lie, I strongly dislike Skidmark. Hate? Eh...sometimes, but I'm not THAT far gone on her yet. In the beginning I felt bad about not liking her or not getting along with her...Then I realize, that shit isn't even my fault. Now my SD is a little more...psychotic...than most, so there IS that. But the fact that she and I don't share a bond is not MY fault. What is my fault is throwing myself into pleasing her for so many years and being rejected and now I feel like a steaming pile of unicorn shit. All glitter and rainbows on the outside but it's still just SHIT. It is NATURES fault that she and I will never bond or get along. It is her mother's fault for the PAS. It is her HEALTH conditions fault. So next time you get all saddy-feely because you don't feel that special bond with your step-satan. It is not your fault. It's natures fault. Unless you are just bat-shit crazy. Then it might be your fault.

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Just needed to say that. Not even sure if it makes sense because my god do I have to pee...But wanted to type it first. Otherwise I lose momentum. And things get crappy.

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Submitted by RedWingsFan on Thu, 01/24/2013 - 4:57pm

LMAO I hate that word too! Stupid Jersey Shore type b.s.

Yeah, I was a new one here too, about 25 weeks ago (so says my account profile anyway). That's just when I officially joined and wasn't just a lurker. At that point, I was still feeling guilty for not loving SD14 but slowly realizing that it truly wasn't up to me to love her. Hell, we had NOTHING in common and there's no way I'd like this kid if she were just another kid on the street. So, just because I was dating her dad, then living with him, then engaged and now married, doesn't change the fact that she's still someone I wouldn't naturally like or converse with in any other circumstance.

Throw in the fact that she lied to me, about me and manipulated the FUCK outta her dad, had the mini-wife syndrome BAD and tried to split us up on numerous occasions, and well, it's just a damn miracle I'm not sitting in a jail cell over her...

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Submitted by RedWingsFan on Thu, 01/24/2013 - 5:01pm

And there they sat, side by side, smiling and knowing that they shared the same murderous thoughts Smile

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Submitted by notagain2012 on Thu, 01/24/2013 - 5:58pm

haha, I needed a smile tonight...:) thank you

Step Satan...love it almost as much as satans spawn

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Submitted by imjustthemaid on Thu, 01/24/2013 - 6:38pm

I saw SD's evil the minute I met her!! I tried to be really nice but the nicer I am, the more she tries to take advantage of me.

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Submitted by oldone on Thu, 01/24/2013 - 10:00pm

I still LOVE the term "crotch dropping" as it perfectly describes my two SSs. Both conceived from ONSs. Yes really. Once when BM was a teen tramp (way more experienced than DH) and then a decade later when they'd been divorced for years.

I never met the dead SS (thank God as he was the sociopath criminal). The younger one - yuck he's pathetic. I know he had horrible parenting (DH does not get a pass) from both parents. But I had nothing to do with that.

I only see him for what he is today - a pathetic semi-employed, semi-housed drunk. Just not anyone I want to spend any time with. Love - yuck. I don't even like him. I don't hate or dislike him - just don't ever want to have anything to do with him.

I grew up in abject poverty and it pisses me off that he had every opportunity given to him for an education and tossed it aside. I didn't have great parenting either but I figured out early that my life was going to be what I made it.

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Submitted by Shieldmaiden on Fri, 04/08/2022 - 11:49am

I hear ya! I have 3 SD's and the oldest one is a sociopath, like her good ol ma. She moved out a few years ago and I thank God for that. The younger ones are good kids, and without her bad influence they are doing so much better.