the Fishing Trip and Disengagement
Well, Dh has another 3-day fishing trip, and Im actually looking forward to missing him if that makes sense.
And its Toxic Troll's week with SD15. And Im not doing any school transport. Dh has organized a friend and his sister who lives near to the school as help in transport because TT is now working, but really odd hours and cannot do it herself without DH's help.
SO. I am very happy with this, as normally I would twist my schedule into a pretzel to help with skid transport. I can leave for work at normal time instead of hella early and I can get home at normal times instead of late. Me disengaging has really taken the pressure off - from everyone. Because no expectations = no disappointments.
Im still mad that DH did not have my back. And Ive been disengaged from school, and all that entails, so Im happy that she isnt failing and disinterested in everything else. Ive got an online class Im taking, and friends Im making and going to the gym, spending time with friends. I feel like I am healed more from the whole debacle. Skid is in her own world with her friends. Dh is in his own world with his fishing. Everyone is locked in their own worlds and happy. So it goes.
I am stressing about the coming holidays. Do I get everyone presents? DH always gets me a present, and I get him one, but skid never has, even though I generally spend about $100 each Christmas and Birthday. She doesnt get anyone presents, as all her money is spent on herself, and she isnt showing interest in a job or doing extra chores for cash. HMMM. And then there is that thing with Feral Forger SD22. Shes still blocked on my phone. Do I attempt to make reparations, in the holiday spirit? Last year was HORRIBLE Im almost wanting to just take a trip, but I know that his family will have gatherings. His VERY large family. And isnt it better to mend bridges, even if we werent the ones to burn them?
Asking for a friend.