My 4 step kids live with us full time. Oldest SD21 is at college. It's hard to Nacho when they never leave but I do my best to only get involved in things that directly affect me and my household...which is almost everything but I pick & choose my battles anymore. I have bit my tongue for weeks to keep the peace. I now have discovered that SD18 and her boyfriend 21 that mostly lives here 6 nights a week and is alone in the house when SD goes to work...anyway they shoplifted from Target. It makes me uncomfortable that they are here alone often or worse he is alone with me.

Hi. I wrote another poem and wanted to share. I would love feedback or criticism. If you would like to read my last poem about steplife I have a first and second draft in my recent blogs. Thanks for reading. I'm enjoying being an author. time to get to work on that novel that I know many of you would love!!

Lies

Untruth. Dishonesty. Omission. Denial. Minimizing.

Distorted facts drift out of you so smoothly, sharply disturbing my soul.

Straight through me like a dagger.

This morning at 7:53am DuH sent me a text saying Have a Good Day with a picture of the sunrise from work. He leaves at 5ish so it's still dark. My first thought was I wonder who else he sent that to and then I remembered I have his ipod with his imessages so I can see. He has a group message with SD18 and SD21 called My Little Angels. I opened that conversation and what do you know, the same picture at 7:10am with his daily morning greeting and the first love you of the day. So 45 minutes later as an afterthought he sends me the same picture. He is so mentally unstable.

Apparently I have said too much recently. My husband may be getting slightly suspicious that I know too much. He thinks I have a source. He thinks it may be his sister but not Aunt T that SD21 hangs out with and talks shit about me but Aunt S who is like a sis to me. My husband barely speaks to his sister T anymore because she is a 'bad influence on SD21' but also she stole SD away from us and SD likes to spend time over there instead of with daddeeeee but he gave her the guilt trip for that, "it's ok that you like them more than us, it's just a shitty feeling though".....who says that??