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Submitted by TheBrightSide on Thu, 02/18/2010 - 9:31am

Yet another Steptalker leaving the nest.

We have officially separated. For good this time.

Give me strenght my friends.

Thanks for being an ear when I needed to talk.

Good luck to you all.

Just when things seem better....life crashes down.

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Submitted by TheBrightSide on Wed, 02/10/2010 - 1:26am

We haven't spoken really in 3 days. An argument about something inconsequential. But what I think it stems from is a fight from a couple of weeks ago. I had 2 miscarriages in 09. We separated ...twice. The last time, he was adamant he didn't want to adopt. I went back. And grieved alone. Finally a couple of weekends ago, we had an argument. After a few days of curt words and mostly silence, followed by some hurtful words, I asked him if he felt guilty. "Do you feel guilty when you see me hurting?". He said no. He felt no guilt.

SD9 getting highlights

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Submitted by TheBrightSide on Tue, 12/22/2009 - 2:10pm

I have that angry pit in my stomach and shaky feeling right now and need to vent. Just got off the phone with DH. As we speak, he is with SD9 at a hair salon where she is getting highlights. She's 9. I said "you're kidding?!". He said "no". "She wanted something different".

There is no WAY IN HELL a child of mine would get highlights, lowlights whatever!!!

I totally think this is a bad idea. This kid ALREADY is into her looks, clothes...on and on.

So, I calmly said "I have to go, have a good day today".

Poll: Which of you do not have Bio Children?

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Submitted by TheBrightSide on Fri, 12/04/2009 - 9:15am

As a SM without bio children, our dynamic is quite different than Stepmothers with children. Although we share a lot of the same issues, we bring to the table, our own set of issues that biological mothers may not understand.

I'm curious to know which of you do not have bio children, and are not planning, for whatever reason, to not have bio children.

Today would have been my due date.

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Submitted by TheBrightSide on Fri, 11/27/2009 - 8:40am

Today would have been my due date. I miscarried twice this year, and today would have been the due date of my first pregnancy.

DH doesn't know what today is. Nobody does.

DH's reaction to the two miscarriages this year, has been detached. He just doesn't know how to support me without getting defensive when I get sad and tell me that I resent him for not wanting to adopt. Sooo....its times like this when I feel really, really alone.

So, my Step friends.....I just want someone in this world to help me acknowledge this day.

Just one of those days.

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Submitted by TheBrightSide on Wed, 01/21/2009 - 12:48pm

I argued with DH Sunday night (and didn’t sleep) prior to his leaving for a business trip Monday morning (we still have not spoken). Prior to the argument, I had offerred to take SD8 to a movie Monday evening after I got home from work on Monday.

Below is the response to my girlfriend who e-mailed on Tuesday to ask how my evening went with SD8 (the only words I changed in order to post this was “SD8” and “DH” and left out the exact amount of the the exorbitant amount of alimony BM receives which is SO exorbitant that its embarrassing to post the actual amount.)

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Lets put all of it aside for the next few days.

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Submitted by TheBrightSide on Wed, 12/24/2008 - 9:45am

Every stress, every hassel, every pain in the a** thing.....let it all go for the next couple of days.

Its your Christmas break too. I'm going to chose to enjoy mine.

Merry Christmas everyone.

Thanks to all for lending me your ears (rather your eyeballs) when I needed to vent.

Cheers.

And I turn 40 in 9 days.....wholly Mary Mother of .....then again, on me...40 never looked so damn good!!

(see everyone..."glass half full")

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