Come on! I have mainly been ignoring the "group text" messages. Look what I did, here's a picture of me doing something amazing, But.... nope, DH says we're going to get together this weekend which, unfortunately I can't step away from without causing a big scene. How do I IGNORE, IGNORE.. if SD is right in front of my face hugging Dear Daddy and muttering Love messages every ten minutes? Ugh, my gut is already twisting thinking about it. 

I can't stand the complete lack of control I have on decisions re. SD and SS. DH is a total chicken-!!** to say No... when they want to visit they have control, he doesn't say that's not a good time to come... SD is such an adult- pouty needy thing, we wouldn't want to hurt her poor little feelings! I'm not sure what to do when I listen to DH on the phone being the guru of all the best advice! Ugh! Help! 

It's been ages since I've been here and written anything... and, fyi... the sk's growing up just means bigger issues so don't hold your breath until they're "out of the house". Tumbles SD 29 is on an approximate 8-week issue cycle but the latest is that she and her bf decided not to use birth control... so... hmmm....she says this (getting pregnant)  was unexpected! She did her usual round of phone calls which doesn't usually include me...and most people encouraged her not to keep the baby. As she makes the decision Daddy gets many of a crying phone call.

How do you feel when you are around your SO and his kids? Maybe even with more extended family? Do you feel lost, sad, left out? How do you push through those feelings or do you? I dread when I have to be around DH and his kids, etc. I pretty much don't get asked any questions or acknowledged and that IS my love language. I am not good at it, it makes me feel horrible, anxious and sad...