Well, the time has gone by pretty quickly, we're on week 12 of SD15 living with us, and it hasn't been easy. We just had court last week, and it's official though BM has yet to return all the CS from the last 3 months which she is court ordered to do. As I've mentioned, most of my problems have been with BF, and his lack of parenting her. To his credit, he has not interfered with MY parenting of her in any way, nor has SD given my any attitude or grief about the ways in which I have reigned her in. But I have become resentful of having to do all I do.

I haven't posted in a while, so this may be a bit long. I did go away from Fri-Mon night and it was wonderful, I had such a good time with old friends and being in my home town, I miss it very much and well, it's been very hard to adjust to being back here since my return, and I'm really not any more happy with BF than when I left.

After the last post about finances, and some other issues that have surfaced, I am downgrading the relationship. We've strayed REALLY far from the ideal that I had for us, and I do love him very much, but I'm not going to push forward with this relationship until things are better, I did that once before, and it didn't work out, and I'm not going to do it again. I've been doing a lot of writing over the last couple of weeks, really figuring out where I've been, and where I am, and where I'm going. It's a much needed perspective, and I concluded that things need to slow WAY down.

I have my phone interview for a job I really want in less than an hour, please send me good vibes, I know this is the first step, but it's a big one, I haven't had a full time job since September, and so much in my life is on hold b/c I don't have a financial future, this is so big for me!!! Many thanks!