Usually getting up at 11:00 am on a weekday would be cause for a smile, but in this instance, I'm just getting up b/c I woke up at 3:00 am and spent the next 6.5 hours alternately crying, laughing, and fuming angry, all the while trying to distract myself with books, websites and LOL cats (the LOL cats worked the best).

A bit of background on me and my mindset about this:
When I was married, my ex and I bought a house together. I brought about 25K from my family into that purchase, so we would have a downpayment. My family is not rich per se, they're just savvy with money and being an only child of an only child, I am lucky enough to have two generations who were able to be generous with me in this way. Also, my parents paid for a very expensive wedding.

Well, as a few of you know, we had our first appt with a lawyer yesterday to discuss bringing suit against Bm for custody of SD. Despite all the research and work I had done, my F decided he didn't want me there. That kind of bothered me, but he explained it as he was afraid if all this went badly, emotionally in the end he might end up blaming me for pushing him, and, he felt like he needed to do this first step on his own. i got him the names of several lawyers, and he made an appt to meet with one for a consult yesterday, and it would cost $75.00.

Well, as my last post indicated, I have been off on vacation for about a week. It was an illuminating trip, from start to finish.

On Friday, F picked up SD after work. I sat, waiting on pins and needles, to see if he'd ACTUALLY make it back to our home with her, as the 3 of us lived in fear of BM changing her mind and denying SD14 her vacation with us. But lo and behold, they both appeared, and celebratory hugs were shared, we were actually going!