So a few ups and a few downs- super long so read if ya have time! lol

After New years i tried to talk to him a few times and he made the phone calls short - i expected that the way he was sulking- so i figured id give him a few nights then on friday or saturday we could really talk- no kid weekend.

well he sends me an email- and I was a little irritated by it but was not mad till the end. What he wrote really got me.

My weekend ended up being an adult weekend- ( my son ended up being sick) so i went up to my guys house.

So he went and got a tree, but its been sitting because he had no tree stand, so i went with and then helped him set-up his tree.

Ok a little back story:  when i moved in with my EX and had our first christmas together- we went and got a real tree. Well the house we were renting the old woman that lived there had glued  a suction cup with hook on it to the  glass on the storm door.  SO i used it, i mean it was there!

Well I'm starting to get past the crying.  My friend is so excited for me to be at her house, that she really bombarded me with events! She is like yeah now you can do this, this, go here, come to this...I just started crying, I said I know you want me to go but I feel like One- I cant make a decision, two over whelmed with all the dates, and three I feel like I cant go because someone will be mad!  She understood and backed off a bit.

Im not even sure how to write everything down, im so irritated and angry with my dh.

First off ss14 has been horrible at school ALL last semester. 

He ended on a 3 E almost 4 E report card.

So now clean slate, he is turning in work- only been a week.

Dh mother asked to get him. No prob, he has been doing good, left cell on table- dh wanted him to have it- baseball at 11am.