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Submitted by happymostly on Sat, 03/05/2011 - 6:47am

sd 7 is on zoloft and an adhd pill. I thought it was weird that she is on zoloft. bm said its for her anxiety. I know shes not here much, and I do see the adhd, but her anxiety...?? i dont know, Im not a doctor or anything but it just seems weird that shes on it. and we had her for 10 days at christmas and she didnt seem anxious at all, and bm did have her on it at that time too, but only gave 3 of them in her pill bottle. Sometimes from when she talks about sd's meds it seems like she wants her to be medicated so she doesnt have to deal with her as much.

marriage is over, what am I supposed to do??

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Submitted by happymostly on Wed, 03/02/2011 - 10:54pm

I love my H, but I just dont feel the same anymore. Ive been going back and forth for a while now anyway, you can definitely see it in my previous blogs. H was leaving for work and he said something about seeing me on his lunch break, which mind you is 3 am and I kind of was like your going to wake me up if you do and he left in a huff after that and i felt bad for how I said it, I shouldnt of, but my mom was standing right there when I said it (we live with her right now) and she was like stunned and said you shouldnt of said it.

o/t again

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Submitted by happymostly on Thu, 02/24/2011 - 11:14pm

well finally saw and actually talked to H tonight after not really seeing him for 3 days because of both our school schedule and work schedule. Didnt end well OF COURSE never does when we see each other. We had a semi good day on Saturday when we had sd, but that was the only good day in a while.

o/t ish

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Submitted by happymostly on Thu, 02/24/2011 - 12:55pm

every day feels like yesterday. I forget what day it is. 10 days ago I was still feeling the same way. A month ago I was still feeling the same way. I WANT to give it effort. I want to try my hardest to feel like im doing the best i can and if it doesnt work out then atleast i can say i tried. but i feel like its 'forcing' myself. i gave myself till december and if things dont get better than its adios. but its like every day i wake up, i think about it all day, leaving. i wish i could go back in times sometimes and never would of said yes. havent really talked all week.

for custodial Smoms; how did you deal with the transition from EOWE and/or 50/50 to full custody?

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Submitted by happymostly on Mon, 02/21/2011 - 10:04pm

I love my sd 7, but I do not have any of my own children, and have never baby sat kids before. I've known sd since she was 3 and a half, and I STILL feel like my 'space' is being invaded. Now granted, for a lot of that time, dh and I lived long distance from each other, so I didnt see sd all that much, then for 6ish months, bm tried to keep sd away, and we havent been getting sd regularly like we used to.

WOW bm WOW. your life is a trainwreck!

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Submitted by happymostly on Sat, 02/19/2011 - 8:57pm

Soooo bm is 5ish months preggo with her bf of about 6 months. (so they were only together a month before her getting preggo!) she kinda hinted around to dh today that they are probably breaking up and that she will be a single mom... WOW. So since her and dh broke up, Sd has been in 3 schools and she is only in 1st grade. and she JUST recently switched to a diff. school because bm and her bf moved into a new place and she couldnt get her to the other school anymore cuz she doesnt have a car. She has lived in probably about 7 or 8 places in the past 2 years.

o/t

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Submitted by happymostly on Thu, 02/10/2011 - 10:03pm

i think im becoming depressed. this will probably be long and i dont really think ill get any replies but thats okay i just need to get my feelings out. i asked H when he was last truly happy, like overcome with joy. he said the day he married me. that was almost 9 months ago. long time to be not be actually happy. i thought about it and i think the last time i was truly happy was when h was moving back here in november after we lived apart for 5ish months(i was supposed to move there but he lost his job). after that its been downhill ever since.

freakin bm! & the beginning signs of PAS...

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Submitted by happymostly on Thu, 02/10/2011 - 6:49pm

bm calls dh this morning and says that she doesnt think sd will 'feel up to coming there next weekend' because she is having something put inside her to check her kidneys since she has been getting kidney infections. Okay... well its not like she is having surgery, AND you have had weeks to schedule this appointment, and somehow it keeps falling on a friday? Like last weekend...? Didnt helped that it snowed so we couldnt get out anyway. But you keep rescheduling them for fridays. On the weekends you KNOW H is supposed to get sd. You couldnt schedule it for this week???

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