Dh has been trying to do better with bs. I see it. Bs sees it. Bs is happier. I am happier. I am trying with the step kids. I took sd out by ourselves for girl day. She was polite and said thank you. It was actually fun. I told dh how much I enjoyed it. He seemed happy. I took my bs and step boys to the movies while dh took sd to see a movie she wanted. Everyone behaved and said thank you. It was a good day. Everyone seems to be on their best behavior. Honestly it has been really nice. I took advice from here and stepped up my behavior of trying to be a family and nicer to the step kids.

Since dh refused to help me out and get my son to school for his trip things have been bad. I am still holing on to that anger but I am trying to let it go. Dh is happy go lucky. Bs had a great relationship with dh and now he has zero relationship. Dh acts like it doesn't bother him at all. Bs isn't happy. He barely looked at us over the summer when he was home. Most of the time now he just looks angry. He has anger in his eyes. He isn't angry about missing the trip he is angry that dh didn't care enough to help him.

But I started looking at flights and then the big wigs came back into the office and I couldn't get back online. I wasn't able to get my son a flight and get him down there. So he has missed the trip. Dh and I aren't speaking and yet he seems fine and I want to throw things at him.

I know that most of you think I caused this but I didn't. I could not leave work. Yes they showed up unannounced and maybe with another boss I could have left or asked a co-worker (I work an hour away with no traffic. 1 1/2 with traffic)but with my boss, no. I couldn't if I value my job and I do.