Last school year my SS was having some health issues that caused him to miss a lot of school. We pulled him out of school, set up a homeschool so he wouldn't fall behind. He is perfectly healthy now and ready to go back to public school. My husband informed me last night that he wants to continue homeschooled this year. Its not him that has to do this, its me. Homeschool did not go well last year, the kids used as an excuse play video games and sleep until 2 or 3pm. Suddenly my husband thinks this pattern will change, once again I have all of the responsibility and none of the authority.

Fear is a horrible thing. This is the only place I feel comfortable enough to put my fears into words. My home is a tense place, always waiting for the next time my SS will explode. My SD is going to have a baby any day and along with the excitement I am also afraid. What will happen if my SS explodes and hurts the baby? I can't even bring myself to mention the possibility to my husband.

The baby shower was not what I had hoped for.In true form my SD's mother had to be the center of attention. She pretty much abandoned these kids years ago but she takes every opportunity to "play mommy" for the crowd. She nearly got into a fight with her own sister, criticized my fathers gift because he bought "top of the line" bottles, diapers and baby wipes. She also waited until I was within earshot to comment that she was the only grandmother there. I have a long fuse and it takes a lot to make me lose my temper.