Ok, so after coming on here to gather opinions, chatting to friends and to family, I have set the wheels in motion to get my partner out of the house.
Despite me knowing things couldn't keep going the way they were, I am gutted that the man I have loved for the past 2.5 years will be leaving my life. He is like a child, in that he is a lovable idiot, but living with a 35 year old alcoholic who behaves like a child is a killer.
His drinking has been getting worse, which is making me angry but I feel so sorry for him too. He keeps saying that he sold all his stuff to move in with me, he literally has very little to his name now...but the things he did have before were disgusting and ready to be binned anyway.
He has also all but lost his job, after changing from a pretty secure position at the end of last year, it appears the new job is just a fill in role...which is totally opposite to what he signed up for. So yes, no money whatsoever. The measley $200 he was contributing to the household hasn't happened for over 3 weeks now the shitty thing there is he keeps going out to spend what little money he does have on beer at the pub.
Right now I feel like the meanest specimen ever. I feel as low as you come and I am not sleeping, not coping with uni stress and struggling at work myself. I haven't had a break up for 8 years...how do I cope? I will miss him, strange as it may seem.