I've never felt hatred in my heart for anyone and it is disturbing to see this side of myself. I want to take the high road and be a cordial and curtious host when they come to our house but I just can't do it anymore. In the past, I've always been the one to buy the Christmas and bithday gifts, to plan the meals on their birthdays, make sure they had a cake but this past
Christmas I did absolutely zero and DH did all of their gifts, etc. Now, when they come over I completly ignore them.

Yesterday was SD's son's 9th birthday. Dh e-mailed me yesterday to let me know that they were coming over to have pizza and cupcakes. Dh took care of the whole thing including spending $100 on video games. He knows I won't do it any longer. Then the whole time they were there I completely ignored them. I didn't eat with them. I watched TV and did my own thing. I must have had a sour puss on my face.

Now, I feel terible about it because it isn't like me to act this way. I feel like I am stooping to her level. Yet, I can no longer force myself to act as though I do not loathe her.

The only reason that they came over was to receive the gifts. Then after he opened them he asked how much it all cost. They were only there for 1.5 hours but it seems like all night.

My DD's 11th birthday is on Sunday. So DD asked her 1/2 sister if she was getting her anything for her birthday and SD said "we will come over on Sunday and spank you a bunch of times" and laughed. I thought that my dd was being sarcastic by asking about her own gift b/c she knows that SD has never once bought anything for her or her father. Not so much as a card. But, when I talked to DD about it she said that she wasn't kidding and that she was serious when she asked SD what she was going to get her for her 11th bd. I told her not to expect anything.

As SD was leaving she said "we will see you on Sunday." I do not expect her to come over although I am sure that DD would like it, I would hate it.