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Straw that broke this camels back

clueless2stepparent's picture

SS10 can go to moms for 4 while days every 2 weeks now. I'm thrilled n mad at the same time. Court is next week mom is probably gonna get 1 week 1 week I was hoping for three days for mom 4 for dad so ss can be with mom everyweekwnd while dad works n be with dad on his days off. But hey im step mom I have no say in the court. I'm just babysitters,  primary care provider,  financial supporter and maid chef teacher and entertainor and transportation. I have 2 daughters I just want to raise n be happy I don't want this when ss10 comes home this last time blaming me for forcing dad to go to court (mom got drunk again n cps got involved we had to go to court)   He told his dad His dad and his relationship is not the same since I got Married to him 5 years ago.  They use to get Starbucks grande vanilla bean Frappuccinos everyday n a toy from the gass station since his dad only seen him for 1 hr while he picked him up from schools n dropped him off to his drunk abusive mother.   I came in n seem he needed to buy him clothes n take care of him teach him things be there with him. But step moms will forever the evil one because we have boundaries standards and expectations for our children. Yhe problems are no matter how hard we work to make them apart of US they justvarnt. When we git married my husband agreed with my patenting style my life choices to be healthy n strive for greatness. Seems I'm the only one who wants that and I'm Forcing it on him and his Son. "They are Not FREE" to be themselves. Lazy TV watching sugar addicts who leave their Things everywhere n don't lift a finger to be or do better in their life. No desire to be smarter or have better I just caint when my husband told me he doesn't think it's working between us anymore. Happily I asked why? I caint be myself with you I don't feel free to live how I want your always nagging n telling me and my son what to do. (those are BioMoMs words, ss came home repeating them. "He caont feel free to be himself" n "i ruined the relationship he had with his dad"

it just breaks me im tierd anyway if he doesn't have future life plans with me anyway this custody case was supposed to bring stability to our marriage so we didn't have to fight over the ss baby momma drama things would be black m white. seems it just made us fight more. nbim the escape goat for everyone's problems. the straw that broke this camels back

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Wicked stepmo.'s picture

I'm sorry you are in this situation. It is a very difficult place to be. I remember being there and  how hard it was to be getting attacked by all sides. SO, SKs and BM constantly placing blame on me for problems that existed long before me. 

It's enough to make you go crazy. My advice to you in order to remove yourself from the drama other than to leave is to disengage from all of it. Remove yourself from anything related to SS. 

I also advise seeking counseling for yourself and possibly later on for both you and DH.  My SO was very anti- counseling. But over time his paranoia regarding what I was saying to the counselor eventually brought him to start coming himself.