Yes, I am back. If you've seen any of my last posts, you would think things worked out for me. I wish so badly. SD14 got grounded to the yard. She went to a baseball game and all of a sudden wanted to go to every single one that was going on. Strange for a girl that hates going outside other than to gossip. We get a call from the school counselor days later. A boy tried to stick his hands in her pants when she went. Makes sense now why she wanted to go to the games.DH talked with her about it, and she explained it as she stopped him so its ok. As DH said, she wasn't watching the game if she was somewhere this could happen. SS8 and SS13 went to visit BM over the summer, as per the visitation agreements. SD14 stayed here. Why you ask? Because she failed 7th grade....a second time. They put her into summer school and told me that as long as she went, she would pass. Great. $400 down the tube. I got so frustrated I didn't even want to speak to her. DH kept telling me that I was in the wrong. M'kay, I can see that I guess. Summer school starts and SD starts leaving at 6am. School starts at 8. DH tells her she is not to leave until 7:45. Things quiet down a bit. I start talking to her again, nothing too big, just chit chat. I find a note where she makes her life into a fairy tale and ends it with hoping that "her ugly stepmother will just vanish". Wonderful. I can't say I blamed her though, I wanted just as bad for her to vanish. We get reports from school that she is encouraged to participate more. What does that translate to? To me: She sits on her a** and does jack all. To DH: she's a great student and is very quiet. School finished, DH lets her buy xbox live which was with money she eared. OK I guess. Then buys her a headset. Why? "She asked for it" Just after helping her dye her hair. Im not saying either is bad really just that we can't just give her what she asks for especially after all the money she cost us to have her attend summer school. DH tells me I need to try to bond with her. Buy a book and write her a letter in it, put a picture of just the two of us in there. Tell her to write her thoughts to me in there so that she never has to worry about me not knowing what she wants. I never get it back. She's up 6am sits on the xbox, goes to sleep on the couch at some ungodly time to wake up and do it all again. She starts babysitting the neighbors 6yr old girl. They give her a cell phone, with 600 mins on it to call them in emergency. 600 minutes go missing in the first week and she asks them for more. Then we find out she is skyping with a 25yr old from the xbox. She was using xbox live to flirt. I don't want to have anything to do with her now. SS 8 AND 13 both come home. Great as always. She gets mad at SS13, and apparently tells BM something about him, so he tells us she bought weed. DH confronts her, and her response?"OH, it was so-an-so's money and they told me to go buy it from some guy I never knew". WHATEVER! I have been finding Visine bottles all over her stuff and none of us use it. DH tells her she is not to hang out with that girl any more. While I am at work, DH and SD get into an argument and she tells him that she hates him and nothing will ever change that. It broke DH's heart, so he sat down to talk with her. This is when she tells him about feeling dizzy and that the neighbors where the ones to tell her to skype and use the minutes and "what goes on there stays there". Riiiiight. Anyway... Yesterday, she goes on a bike ride. A mystery bike shows up in our yard, so I tell DH about it and SS13 and his friend tell me it's her BF's. Shortly after they leave, she comes back to the house and quietly leaves, not saying a word to me and trying to be quiet, she rides off on his bike. At the end of the day, some of the kids in the area come to see DH. They tell him that she was in the woods having sex with BF and was bragging to everyone about the oral they had. I am so fed up, she comes into the room at 10pm after DH told her to go to bed at 9, asking for a bandaid and while he's telling her she wouldnt need one if she was asleep, she cuts him off by saying she needs antiseptic as well. I told her rules that were going to apply now and that I wanted the book for her feelings back, and yes, I was short, curt and gruff. DH turns to me when she leaves and tells ME to calm down and that I don't need to be mean to her....wait...WHAT?! MEAN?! I'M ABSOLUTELY FED UP WITH THIS SELF CENTERED LITTLE BRAT, AND AFTER ALL THAT SHE'S DONE, I'M THE IRRATIONAL ONE?!! DH and I haven't talked since then. I hate the person she is making me and I hate who she is becoming even more.

Sorry.....I spewed all over this blog again....if you've read this far, thanks....I guess I need to know that I'm not the crazy one...I just live in a crazy house right now.