Another weekend down and a crazy one to come. SD and family coming to visit the SD living here in 4 days (with mother and stepdad).
Trying the "positive self talk" to prepare myself and my man. I gotta do something because all the negative possibilities could eat me alive. Why does it take as much energy to think positive as it does to think negative thoughts?
Husband is trying to be positive as well, he knows little to nothing about any of their plans, I know it is upsetting him and I am trying so hard to be positive for his sake but I am struggling a little bit. I hate that I feel like he knows more than he is saying - probably trying to spare my feelings, he has done it before. I want to ask him if he knows more but that littel incling of fear keeps me from going there. Can't help but feel like it needs to be done - like ripping off the band-aid. It will hurt for a little bit but it is necessary.
will think it over and make my decision tomorrow
Well, off the internet for tonight, need to give my brain a rest. Thank goodness for wine!!!!