well, as most of you know me and X-SO are trying to work things out. he is still not living here and still does not know me and BM talk.
today I met BM and FSD at the park to play (with my new puppy Kooper)

while Kooper and FSD were playing me and BM talked...
she told me tat she explained to FSD that her daddy and I no longer live together. she then said that FSD asked if she HAD to go to daddys!
she dont want to. possible due to the fact that X-SO never plays with FSD when we had her, so im assuming this is not new behavior!

I work nights at a hotel. im front desk clerk..well around 4am i hear what sounds like a howling dog...

i look outside.. nothing

well a few min later i hear it again! i walk outside and waddling down the sidewalk is a little puppy crying and shivering! so being the sucker that i am... i bring it in.. wrap it up in a towel and feed him some milk.. he is now curled up in the towel in the laundry basket... snoring!

well... i finally told SO that when SD4 is there I dont feel like a "family" I feel as tho Im the 3rd wheel. He dont make her listen most of the time and he bitched about sittin at the table like a family... but then gets mad at me if i wanna go see a friend for a few hours bc he thought we would all spend time together.. like a "family". I think we have 2 different meanings of the word "family"

sorry guys... i know i JUST posted... but I have a question for all yall!

is it bad of me to get upset when SD wont let me near my SO?!
I mean I cant even lay in the floor next to him without her getting mad at me. I cant hold his hand (she can be holding one hand and me holding the other.. .and she will get between us and hold my hand and his hand)
just little stuff like that, it bothers me... but I try to make myself remember she is only 4 and this is new to her