Ok, so skankface emailed FH the other day and was pissed that ss14 was home sick at our house friday(as if it's her business) and that "i control the reins" so she can't have such "open lines of communciation" with FH anymore. She had the nerve to send this in an email, which I found in fh's email account.
I'm livid.

Let me give you the cliff notes of my weekend. Friday was the only day in a long time FH and I could have any adults-only time. We went to dinner, had a couple drinks, and a beautiful evening. We talked...well he talked alot, about things that he needed to vent about and just give us a state-of-the-relationship thing. It was a great night.

Not to whine, but I feel incredibly lonely in my relationship with FH. I don't know how to expres it entirely right so I might be rambling... I am lonely because he is physically not around for 4 days because of the work schedule, but even then, I need the hour or so I see him...I don't care if the skids are there or not, I just need to have him there so spend time with and just his physical presence.

You know from that Fireproof movie???
I'm figuring I'll give this one last go, try one last thing, and at the end of the 40 days if I'm not happy I'm going *anywhere* away from here.
I ordered the book today and it should be here shortly, then we'll see...
Even if it doesn't help save my relationship, I'll know that I've tried all I could and maybe find peace with him as he is so that I can leave w/o feeling guilty.