So my fiance applied for this new job where he will be gone 2 weeks and have a week off for 1 week. ALthough I will miss him terribly on the two weeks he is gone, this will mean that he will have to give BM full custody. Is it awful that i would LOVE THAT!!!!!!!!! BM wants that power and I just want to give it to her. I know fiance will be sad and miss his kids but I don't f*ckin care!!!! how about THAT!!!!!!!!!!!! (pretty sure i'm going to h-e-double hockey sticks for saying this but OH WELL).

I just have to say that I hate my future stepchildrens mother. With a passion. I loathe her. I am not normally a hateful person and even though some people get on my nerves I normally don't let them get to me. She gets to me though and I'm tired of her making me feel horrible and treating me horribly all the time. From day one it's been one thing after another. Starting with stalking. On my fiance and I's first date she found out where we were going and showed up. Then she found out where I applied to work and threatened to make sure I didn't get the position.

So I am feeling really upset to know and hear that both my future step children HATE me. They tell their mother that. The little one who is 5 and a girl says she hates me because I'm mean. Her idea of me being mean is because I am the sole disciplinarian in the household. Before I came along, my fiance's kids were allowed to do whatever they wanted whenever they wanted. So they think I'm mean and hate me which makes them mean to me and my daughter which freakin sucks!! I love kids and always have and kids have never hated me before.