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Faked illness

Date day ruined by stepdaughter (16) being so "ill" she needed her dad to take her to the ER (BM was out of town) and after hours of testing she is miraculously better and went to Starbucks. She does this all the time. I am pissed. My husband is pissed that I'm upset but this is not new and he does not tell her that this isn't okay. Just lets her do whatever she wants. I'm not happy and definitely feel like I'm not a priority and this just proved it. He knew she wasn't sick and sent me a pic of her in the hospital bed smiling. Like WTH? Then he gets mad that I'm unhappy. Well no shit.

Officially "done"

You know when you try your hardest to actually communicate with someone and they not only twist your words, but get so angry with you there is nothing that you can do/say in that moment because their eyes have glazed over with anger? Well...that's my husband. I've been really trying to communicate when something bothers me instead of bottling it up and when I feel justified in having a conversation with him (yes, I do realize this sounds bizarre) he immediately goes on the offense and defense and twists everything so that I am manipulated to questioning my own thoughts.

AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

I went to counseling on Friday because I feel like I am about to lose it. I work full time (teaching kindergarten), have a blended family of 5 (2 with special needs). I do ALL the housework aside for assigning chores to the 11 and 10 year old, but you know how that goes. This morning my SD got all pissy at me because she couldn't find clean pants. I calmly told her and everyone in the house that I will teach them to do their own laundry because I can't do it all. My husband got mad and said "well this is going to be a fun home" and walked away.

I need help

I am so frustrated. I need to vent, and I am looking for some advice. I have 2 boys and my husband has 3 children (two with special needs). We have his children every Wednesday for dinner and every other weekend (except for 1 who we have all the time). My husband's ex has been dropping off the kids on Wednesday at 5:00 for dinner, but my husband doesn't come home from work until 6-6:30. I have been with his kids, but mine are at their dad's. SO my ONE break (I am a kindergarten teacher) from kids is Wednesday, but I have to stay home with them until he comes and gets them.

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