DH's email to me " Hey you won't respond to my calls, text , Facebook messages or emails I really need for you to hear me out. I did what I did for the girls. They deserve a shot at having their mom in their lives full time again. I could see how not having her around hurt them. The main reason BM was lashing out and pushing them away was because she felt threatened by your presence in their lives. As the mother of my first two and my first love I never really got over her . I thought I was when I found you. When you got pregnant things changed . You became distant and moody .

He's leaving me with a baby for his ex wife . He left me a text message this morning letting me know he has been talking to BM for the past couple of months and that is where his heart really is and t hat he is so sorry. He packed his bags and the SD's bags while I was sleeping and he left me. I cant breath. I gave him everything . I gave birth to his child just a few months ago and he's leaving me! I'm shaking. I never meant anything to him. Yesterday everything was normal and he was so sweet . I don't understand. Why wasn't I enough. I want to die right now. I can't do this .

I'm hanging on by a thread. I feel like i've been pregnant for 10 years. This little child in my belly is trying out for the gmnastic olympics. I got one SD home with the flu. A sick DH acting like a wounded bird. MIL is on her way to get on my last nerve. BM has been trying to call. I am tired ok im tired. Im going to take my big Mac and cookies into my room. I am going to pig out then try to take a nap. If anyone bothers me i might wake up screaming. I know i look a hot mess. Don't care . Please don't come over here to piss me off MIL.

I woke up in the middle of the night craving pickle flavored mashed potatoes and mustard with a side of extra salty pretzels. I silently cried when DH refused me and asked me to go back to bed. Can you believe this fool would not get up to cook for his pregnant wife! . So I got up and made mash potatoes drenched in pickle juice and opened a pack of pretzels and crushed them on top. We didn't have mustard but I was fine with that. I put the spoon in my mouth.