OT - mourning an abusive parent
I know there are members who had abusive parents. While I know that not all are Jewish AND that the abuse the writer suffered pales in comparison to some, it is an interesting article.
https://www.tabletmag.com/jewish-life-and-religion/289231/mourning-an-ab...
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Reading through the article..
Reading through the article.. it struck me that her father was suffering from depression.. and that his daughter likely inherited that trait as well.. and it burdened them both. Some of what she described as abuse.. didn't seem to necessarily be intended to be cruel.. but when colored with the mental illness of both of them.. the results were not great.
I think we often think of our parents through a particular lens with particular expectations and forget that they are human and are subject to human conditions. My own father, I believe, suffers from some depression. In fact, his mother killed herself when he was young. I don't doubt that some of his rages/moods were direct results of that.. cold comfort to the small child riding out the storm.. but as an adult.. I can gain some perspective.
I agree with you about the
I agree with you about the depression and his treatment does sound (IMO) somewhat abusive. Certainly not to the extreme like some have suffered. I know someone whose father beat him with a 2x4 when he was a teenager. He hated his father for that, but was able to forgive many years later when his father was dying.
One of my closest friend's mother suffered from depression and took her own life. My friend and her youngest brother suffer from depression and her brother is an absolute trainwreck. He's an alcoholic - the last thing he needs. :(
I am one of those with an
I am one of those with an emotionally abusive upbringing due to my father. He is still living. I've always hated Fathers day and trying to find the most generic, unemotional card the store had. He later admitted he was a horrible father, and we have actually built a decent relationship in his old age in spite of this.
Sometimes I wonder what it would have been like to be a daddy's princess like some of the SD's we have to deal with. But that was not in the cards for me. I am grateful that I was able to find emotional stability as an adult.
I'm sorry, Lambie. I hope his
I'm sorry, Lambie. I hope his admission had some meaning for you. xoxo
Finding generic, unemotional cards is as difficult as finding a loving anniversary card for a senior couple married only 3 years. Gah.
I was certainly NOT a princess. However, the older I got, the more I realized how blessed I was to have the kind of parents I did.
Thanks for posting this Aniki
Thanks for posting this Aniki. Am sending it to a friend.
I hppe your friend finds it
I hppe your friend finds it helpful, WM.
I had emotionally neglectful
I had emotionally neglectful parents who are both dead (in 1999 and 2010). I had to have counselling after the death of my mother who was the worse of the two. I wish now that I had had better boundaries with her, and maybe gone no contact, but it is obviously a moot point now. I will never recover fully from the abuse, I have accepted that.
I'm so sorry, Kes. xoxo
I'm so sorry, Kes. xoxo
Not having closure of ANY sort can be difficult. My Mom had Alzheimer's and - looking back - her memory problems began when I was a teenager. There are things that happened I could never discuss with her or get closure from and have had to try to reconcile myself to that. Was it really how she felt? Was it the disease?? I know it cannot compare, but think I have an inkling.