My kids are everything to me and are my top priority, but why does BF saying that SD is his "#1 priorty" make me ill? Feel second? I guess because I feel he has made decisions and sees world through the filter of how SD will be affected rather than considering all things.

I'd never let an unreasonable demand take priority over my relationship with BF. I feel I have ZERO problem saying no to my kids and am able to consider my children's wants and needs with my own wants and needs, and those of my BF's.

I'm tired, I don't know if I should do this anymore. I've been saying this since the fall. BF and I hash and rehash the same things out and yet I am still confused, I guess because he doesn't really give me clear answers, until Friday night at our couple's counseling session...I explained that I wanted our relationship to be primary and that I felt like he was still married d/t his 50/50 coparenting situation with BM. I said that I needed our relationship to be the central relationship and that if it wasn't, I knew I could never be happy.

Things are not as I want them with my BF. Long story but his life wasn't and still isn't ready for me. Many times I've tried to end things but I love him, which is why I am still with him. That being said, lately I feel indifferent re spending time together. We've gone from living together and dreaming of getting married to seeing each other sometimes just once a week.

BF finally found the time to call me this morning. SD was busy at a playground. He called me again this afternoon. I guess he figured out why I was pissed and didn't reply to his text messages last night.

I am still pissed. Him calling me does not make up for him NOT calling me for almost three days.

He's lucky he called because I was going to end it if he didn't call today. I am still having serious misgivings re the relationship because of him not calling sooner.

I am planning on confronting him when he returns...