Ok so i have posted on here before about the insanity I moved into. A little over a year ago, I was living in PA and met a man from LA working for the same company I worked for. Well long story short, we met, fell in love and blah blah blah. We had a connection unlike I had ever felt before and it was very stressful because we KNEW his working in PA was "temporary" because he had a kid in LA that he couldn't relocate permanently.....so we didn't know how long we had together. Well since he couldn't relocate, he asked me to. And after about a month of really thinking about it, I decided to move to be with him. I was so excited for the move but ever since I arrived it's been a disaster. I have been in constant competition with his mother, his son and even his EX (the BM). I spent 6 months absolutely MISERABLE trying to figure out WTF happened to "us". I didn't like the fact that his ex was sleeping at his parent's house (which is 100 yards away) because it made ME uncomfortable. I didn't appreciate that his mother would call 3-5x a DAY or just walk into my home without being invited, calling first or ANYTHING.....His mom even went as far as walking INTO my bedroom to wake me up one day..WTF!! I would go to him and say "baby, these thing MUST change" or try to talk to him about why these things bothered me, but he wasn't listening. Then the fighting started......no matter WHAT was said, if it was in any way derogatory towards his mother he got defensive and holy shit was I an evil bitch from hell and totally WRONG!!

So like I said, I spent MONTHS blaming the his mother, the BM even the kid.....This place was nothing but a disease!! I had no one to turn to because everyone HERE is either HIS family or friends. I felt completely lost and alone and like I had made the BIGGEST mistake of my life. I even LEFT in July and went to a friend's in NC but came back because he PROMISED it would be better. Well, he had been trying to push the BM out and keep his mama at bay.....but we still were fighting. So last month a dear friend of MINE comes from PA to visit and it FINALLY hit me.......it was HIM!! It was the fact that he stopped "listening" to me and he was always trying to justify or explain WHY this or that happened. Anyway, once I figured out the problem I felt like a huge weight was lifted off of my shoulders...but then when I talked to HIM, that weight was transferred to HIM because his unwillingness to listen to me and believe that I am NOT talking to him just to hear myself speak was up to him!! I couldn't do it for him. And I told him I would be patient and we could work on it together! Because that's all I want......is for US to be US again.

Anyway, while my friend is visiting, he comes home from work and tells me all freaked out that the psycho BM called him and told him she was "moving away because she hates this place". Well now for those that aren't aware, I hate the BM!! She's a lunatic! And I can't really put all the blame on her because she was with my b/f for 6 years before (even tho its been confirmed the relationship was crap)and he comes home from PA after his first hitch working up there, breaks it off with her......she moves out and he never mentions ME. So much like they had done in the past, they broke up and I believe she assumed they would just reconcile again. Well then about a week before I moved down here (5 months later) he finally told her about me and that I was moving down so I'm sure she was a little pissed......and I was furious when I found this out because I think he SHOULD have told her instead of allowing her to have "false hope" and also I was pissed that he did what he did to get her to agree with whatever he wanted pertaining to custody and support, which she did!! It was selfish as far as I was concerned. So anyway......back to the BS. I do love him and I want this to work but I'm starting to lose all hope. Because his mama is still WAY too involved in MY life....but anyway the BM called him and gives him the impression that she's moving like out of state. So he's all upset because at the thought he might lose his kid (which after all the problems WE'VE had involving that child, it wouldn't have broken MY heart that she moved FAR FAR AWAY with him) but anyway......he's gearing up for a custody fight. Well later that day, he comes home from work and tells me that the BM is "giving us custody"!! I was like DUDE, REALLY??? Just like that? Without even discussing anything with me......she's "giving us custody". We already have the child 1/2 the time!! So needless to say I was a little upset that he went ahead and made that decisions without me......but hey, what could I have said anyway?? Cuz holy shit.......he already accuses me of trying to "separate him from his kid".......which really SUCKS that he thinks that. Anyway, so all of a sudden I have a 3 y/o that I really can't stand because he's spoiled rotten, has NO BOUNDARIES and everyone in my b/f's family treats this kid like he's Christ reincarnated!!

So I come to find out that the BM is actually only moving 40 mins away.........NICE!! Then I get told that she's been selling the kid's stuff on FB-WTF?!?!?! So NOW that he "has custody" even tho no paperwork was changed (yet) I am begging him to MOVE AWAY from here!! I have to get away or we are gonna fall apart!! \Like I said, this place has been nothing but a disease!! I feel like everyone is in control of me and us BUT ME and I can't do it anymore! And now with this "custody" he CAN move.....we CAN relocate!! But NOW its he doesn't want to leave his family.

I'm at my wits end and I really hate to walk away.....but I am not sacrificing MY emotional, personal, physical and spiritually well being for HIM!! He's selfish in thinking that HIS wants/needs supersede my own!! I mean, I already gave up everything to be with him. I had a job, house, friends and family, uprooted my kids from school and moved them to be with him because HE was who I wanted to be with.....he was my happiness and what was important. And the funny thing is that in PA, I was HIS happiness and I was treated like the most important person in his life, but as soon as I got down here............not so much anymore. I was sorta shoved aside and forced to take a back seat to his mama, his kid, his ex and so on!! And now it's painful to realize that he won't give up shit for me and us!! Obviously he doesn't want 'us" as much as I do.

I guess "us" isn't as important to him as it is to me!!

UGH!! This sucks..........any thoughts?