First off I want to say thank you to everyone for the prayers andwell wwishes. Sometimes I feel like I'm going crazy here when I'm at home. After posting yesterday I went back to sleep then sat around while she went to the gym. She got home and then I said hey let's go get ss12 his Christmas present. So o got dressed and we left. We got his present and her sister calls andwants us to come over. She loves 1/2 hr away. I said OK and next thing I know she's passed because I gave her a short yes to dinner their and going over their and went back to reading. We get their and ss13 and her get out going inside to leave me trying to get out and carry my stuff by myself. WTF. So we go in I'm in the recliner leg up and not only does she spill her pop all over their floor I asked if she could get m y sand which.(bro inlaw made killer Philly cheese steaks). She goes gets ss13's plate and piles a shit ton on hers and comes and sits down. I was very polite and said "hey can u please grab me one again.". She gets apologetic in a very snooty manner and gets one for me. Fast forward 20 mins she's laughing at something and slaps my right foot about sending me through the chair in pain. She giggles and says "sorry". I was more hurt than pissed. She's so abrasive and narcissistic that my BIL leaves for work 1/2 early. I end up having to drive home on back country roads with the seat all the way back hardly able to reach the steering wheel. She "can't drive at night due to bad eyesight" she says. By this time my leg and back are spasming. We get home I hobble straight to bed. She turns TV on in our room(which I fkin hate) and cable won't work. Old TV with no remote. So I spend the next 1/2 hr getting the cable to work. To boot she sosnt understand why I was upset that she came right out and told ss13 what he got for Christmas and lied to me about it. To be honest I keep questioning my own sanity and mind set lately. Her and her boys are so good at manipulating things and situations that now seeing why's she has no friends. I keep thinking the past three years is just a fluke but I'm starting to see they are not. Coming here and the therapy I went through for 2 years ate the only reason I stay sane. She has refused to get help. I'm slowly realizing why her x boyfriend was "abusive". I'm realizing that he just refused to be treated like shit. Thank you guys for letting me vent. The hardest part is knowing I'm a sub contractor so I have to go back to work tomorrow because we canceled our aflec becaus e according to her we didn't need it. Lmfao