Im here to vent a bit.

My step son (12) has been home sick all week. He is a sweetie and no trouble. It's just....he isn't mine. Mine grew up and 2 left home. I was a single Mom for 10 years. I don't want that life any more.

I work from home so guess who looks after him? DH spent yesterday here and took him to the doctor so that was good but the rest of the time, it has been me.

I know - I know - I should say no way. So then what? I sit here working while DH sits here too - away from the office- knowing he doesn't really need to be here and knowing it's just because I refuse to care for his child? I don't want that either - the atmosphere would be bad.

I am going for a job interview on Monday. I don't really want the job - I love working from home. The only reason I am going fo the job is so I am not taken for granted any more.

The most annoying part is when DH asks me "What are your plans today". I don't have meetings in town or anything arranged so.... he goes to work. The impact on my life is still there. I can't make plans. I can't go out if I feel like it. What if I just suddenly feel like going shopping? I can't. And then there is the constant sound of the TV in the background with kids shows. Not great for making business calls.

Im being selfish I guess. I have been rinsing and repeating the words you guys told me to say - not my child, not my problem. It's not always that simple is it?

Oh and the BM is still nuts. Doesn't want me looking after her child. LOLOLOL. Come get him then!!!!

Sigh.