Just when I think our life is going up, whoever is upstairs comes back to stomp me back into my place. The big consulting company called DH when we met for lunch with MIL today and cancelled his verbal job offer. Long story short, they couldn't find a division who would accept the additional payroll of taking him on. Why they would make him a verbal offer before sorting this out is beyond me.

To say DH is devastated is an understatement. There is nothing in the pipeline. June 10th will be 2 years unemployed. We can't go back to court to lower child support until a full year. The court date was December 16th, but it wasn't filed officially until sometime in January. So we get to continue to pay $2,000 per month to BM2 with $0 in income, hooray.

Obviously there won't be any baby talk anytime soon after all. That's what I get for possibly trying to plan a future. With my income, I have enough to cover our house and all the bills and food etc. if we are very careful (just bought a Dave Ramsey book to help him get things more under control). But I do not have any extra for child support. Seriously, after paying all the bills we have about $200 for 2 weeks for food, clothes, gas, medical expenses etc. etc.

I keep crying at work and trying to hold it together. We were so close. There was a light at the end of the tunnel. And now this. I'm just having a pity party for myself.