SD14 two hour family therapy session was full of bs! She yells and screams I don't want to do this anymore. Im done. Im done with home. Im done with the girls home. Im done being on earth. She has so much restriction that she even took a plastic spoon and decided to start cutting herself with that. ARE YOU KIDDING ME? Im pissed they want her to have a 48 hour pass for thanksgiving. Well I sure don't want her around me or my little boys if shes so "suicidal" so "done". Then she was like i remember going to my moms once and i was scared so i started biting my insides of my lips so bad you just took me home. I lost it guys! Thats mine! when i was in foster care with my now parents i did that it was so bad they stopped keeping foster kids. she went on an on about how bad bullying is and thats why she wants to die. and that it doesn't matter where she was. so then she yells no ones listing to her. we are it sucks kids are mean but the problems you have had at 4 different schools are all the same so you have to find a different way to deal with it. Im getting heated just talking about it. Part of me wishes that BM was in the picture so that DH could throw our hands up and say we don't know what the hell to do and we cannot continue to live this way. but their is no where for her to go! she says no ones ever listened! 6 years of counsling guys! 6 YEARS! if no ones listening maybe shes not talking. im so fed up. and i don't know what to do about Thanksgiving! I already told my family we weren't comming becuase i don't want un-necessary drama with her. DH knows some of the things not to do so it won't be as bad there. BUT I DON'T WANT HER HOME! AM I AWFUL??? I AM I KNOW. I DO LOVE HER BUT I CAN'T TAKE IT! I DON'T WANT IT AROUND ME OR MY CHILDREN!