I guess I need that. Normally we have to remind her, and I get into other stuff, relaxing maybe, at night. I posted how irritating it was to have to go thru this shit every evening. I mean, you know your bed time, you know you need a shower before. We aren't reinventing the wheel here. So basically I figured just move it up to a set time and then relax from there. Nothing like relaxing in an ice cold shower.... I guess until I get a thing installed I could just flip the breaker...lol. She did this on purpose. I have a 40 gal water heater.

This coming on the tail end of her coming home from school today where apparantly they are advertising for a dance on Friday which tickets have to be purchased by tomorrow, But NONE of her friends and NO ONE around has a ticket. So 'I need to call the office to figure it out tomorrow'. Sure after I defrost from my fricking four degree shower I will jump right on that.

Also, for the past couple of years I have been working on getting a small business going. Other investors, working with my workers, pandering to customers, etc. You don't always like them, sometimes you actively dislike, don't respect, think they are crooked/wrong/stupid whatever, but you NEED to work with them. So you learn that what you think or how you feel is irrelevant, you don't have the luxury to pick and choose. So you put on your game face and go from there. That is how I feel at home with her. Most of the time, I am trying to constructively get something done with minimal crap. My game face is on, and I am masking personal opinions, feelings, biases, whatever. Since she is so far from me, there is a hell of a lot more game face than real. And I don't have an outlet. The weight thing... my husband cant approach it with her, I have gone at it from the angle of cutting back on house crap and increasing exercise. BUT I sit there and think, JUST don't eat all the fattening shit. Eat one lunch at school instead of yours and your friends. I don't say what I would say to a friend, I don't say what I would say to a lot of personal contacts. I just hide?maybe... I don't know. At work, this woman picked out the MOST PUTRID shade of blue for her kitchen which was about the size of a porta potty to begin with. My response options: 1 To a friend, are you freaking kidding me, that color is atrocious, it will suck light, it doesn't complement or contrast with your other colors, it will kill resale (so you will be painting again), PUKE, 2 to an acquaintance, That is a pretty dark distinctive color that doesn't do much with your other choices, is there anything else you have in mind, 3 to a client- Well color is a VERY subjective taste, I personally lean toward neutrals and beiges with muted accents, they keep smaller areas light, and are generally well received by a number of different tastes. We can do the blue, but I think once it is on the walls and done you may be overwhelmed. She is in my home, I am trying to guide her life in a positive direction, and I am always Feeling option 1, and SAying option 3. it is exhausting, and very distancing. I am holding crap in and it sucks.