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How we spent our 3rd anniversary

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Yesterday was our anniverary. We had all the kids (2 mine, 2 his and our toddler) so we were just cooking at home and hanging out.

the one thing I’ve voiced lately is that I do NOT want SD16s boyfriend here all the time..and then I need to be consulted before he does or doesn’t come over ..especially during the week. We work full time, plus all teen kids and our toddler.....and DH is the boyfriend ride to and from...

My Christmas Wish

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I love (well used to love) the Holidays, that has been long gone since blended life. You know that song..."where are you Christmas?"....that is me. I cry every time I hear it....

I put my tree up early this year and my house is beautifully decorated and illuminated but I feel nothing. I LOOOOVE to shop and it just feels like a chore going out and buying gifts. I want to find the Christmas joy but I can't. I spent 35 years of my life having amazing and wonderful Christmases full of memories and fun and warm fuzzy feelings.........and now here I am....scrooge.

5 days of Vacation and then BAM back to normal

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DH and I went away alone together for 5 days....sort of off the grid. It was wonderful, he was great and I never once felt like I was going to go crazy. My chest didn't hurt, I didn't feel shaky, or angry or any bad feelings. I felt like myself again, I felt free, calm, relaxed and happy. I think DH felt the same. we felt like a couple in love.....like it's supposed to be.

Maybe I need a different persepective on Skids

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So I've said it many times on here before....my issue with skids isn't personal to them. The issues with skids that drive me totally bat shit insane (and there are so many) are  almost 100 percent my DH's fault. Even the issues with BM, and the issues with MIL and pretty much anyone other thing...is b/c my DH won't stand up to anyone. I fully realize he alone is to blame.

When PAS Backfires

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It's just one thing after another for me these days. Skids were gone for a week with BM out of town....life was peaceful and resembled some form of normalcy. Well they returned and life is back to being full of drama and stress......DH spent half the day yesterday at work on the phone with BMs and/or SD's....so he comes home stressed of course.....as usual.

 

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