I am just so tired of being a step parent. I need help and have no idea where to go. My husband expects me to love his children like I love my own daughter and I have to take care of them all the time and put rules in place since they have none at their Mom's house. For the last three months I have been feeling very sick. I developed vertigo and have panic attacks...sometimes 10-15 a day. My doctor recently put me on Xanax and scheduled a psych appointment. I am freaking out becuase I no longer feel like me. I don't know if that makes any sense to anyone.