I had plenty of chances to go with anyone, but I knew what I wanted and I was going to find it if it was the last thing I could do as I’m sure he did too. I grew up much differently than most; I’ve seen and done things that no child should have to endure. It all has done no harm, only made me the remarkable woman I am today. My mother had committed suicide about 6 months prior to my affair exactly 1 week past my 18 Birthday, and all she ever wanted was for me to leave the bastard of what he called himself a “man” and give my daughter what she deserved a real family and father figure.