I am exhausted, emotionally and mentally exhausted. I do not know how to keep doing this. Disengaging a bit helps when SS is there, but now we are fighting over him when he isn't there......

Yesterday, SO participated in SS's counseling session - remember, he needed to go because it was not fair that he only had 1/3 of the closet when he is only with us something like 36% of the time. SO had promised that he would address the issues with the counselor - the lying, the manipulatio, the disrespect, and so on.

He did none of that! Lets point the finger instead. Well Ms. Counselor, it's not SS's fault, it's mine - I don't always give consistent discipline. Well Ms. Counselor, SS and my GF wouldn't have a problem if she didn't allow him to push her buttons. Really, he is the victim here?????? And now the counselor thinks she should meet with me!

He LIES. He MANIPULATES. He intentionally pushes my buttons. He stares me down when he thinks he won't get caught. He is DISRESPECTFUL. He is RUDE. If someone would be honest about the situation it MIGHT be able to be fixed. But no one wants to look at precious SS. How am I supposed to meet with her knowing that BM will turn right around and obtain copies of the records?!?!?!??!?!

My relationships with my friends are almost non existent because I dont' want to expose them to this crazy ass environment (my SO got mad when my best friend, who is also my sons godmother, sent him a card for valentines day and didn't send one to his son - who she has only met twice in the past 6 years!). My nerves are shot. I am depressed. My hair is falling out. I cannot concentrate at work. My patience is gone and I am so sad.