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Submitted by Krissy on Thu, 05/17/2007 - 9:38am

STBX is going at the end of June. THANK GOD. I cannot take it anymore. I just want him O U T. It's nuts but with a firm date in sight I can accept that it will be another 5 weeks or so. Especially as he has found a place already!

I can't take it

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Submitted by Krissy on Tue, 05/15/2007 - 12:38pm

I am so annoyed that I want to SCREAM. I really cannot take it anymore. I have decided to stay here in PA with DD rather than move to NY and told STBX that he needs to find another place to live. We originally said July 1. Honestly, I don't know if I can hold out for that long. He is a slob, he is nasty, he is rude, he doesn't do anything I ask around the house and I just want him OUT. I know that he really doesn't have a place to go but I have offered to go look at apartments for him and find something that he can have by June 1.

DH ripped my heart open last night

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Submitted by Krissy on Mon, 04/23/2007 - 3:26pm

I have always suspected that DH did not feel connected to me in the way he did to BB because we never had a child together. Throughout our marriage, problematic as it was, I wanted to have that child but I convinced myself I wanted it for the wrong reasons.

Since I've made the choice to end the marriage, I have felt content and positive about the future. Any jealousy or resentment I had toward BB and SS faded significantly, and for the past 2 months or so I have really begun to move on emotionally from DH.

Feeling guilty...

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Submitted by Krissy on Fri, 04/20/2007 - 8:33am

Last night I got home and DH was not there. We have SS on Thursdays, and they are always home before DD and I. Anyway, so I waited an hour and finally called. DH told me that he got held up (thanks for the heads up) because SS had been vomiting and having diarrhea all afternoon and BB had to wait until he stopped to put him in the car.

Frustration...

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Submitted by Krissy on Tue, 04/17/2007 - 1:15pm

Since I've made my choice to leave, I've experienced a rollarcoaster of emotions. I go from HATING SBTX, to feeling sorry for him. I pity him yet I am angry at him for not taking responsibility for himself. I am exhausted by these feelings and I just want it all to end.

I HATE this man

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Submitted by Krissy on Mon, 04/16/2007 - 12:34am

Last night, STBX and I were talking about my job prospects (I have decided that as soon as I get a new job back in NY, I am leaving). I am hoping to get something at a university so that I can get my master's free w/ tuition reimbursement and have a few good prospects, but last night I was just kind talking outloud and said something about how maybe I will stay here in PA if I can get a job in academia here (right now I am in pharmaceutical communications). Anyway, he about flipped when I mentioned staying here and he said that he can't live here in the same town as me.

My story!

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Submitted by Krissy on Fri, 04/13/2007 - 3:27pm

My name is Krissy and I'm a BM (2-year-old DD) and a SM (5-year-old DSS). I have been married to my husband for 2 years and in the past few weeks, we have been talking divorce. Many factors have gone into this decision, which is mostly mine. The difference between DH and I regarding this matter is that he is content to stay in a failing marriage and I am not.

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