I am so annoyed that I want to SCREAM. I really cannot take it anymore. I have decided to stay here in PA with DD rather than move to NY and told STBX that he needs to find another place to live. We originally said July 1. Honestly, I don't know if I can hold out for that long. He is a slob, he is nasty, he is rude, he doesn't do anything I ask around the house and I just want him OUT. I know that he really doesn't have a place to go but I have offered to go look at apartments for him and find something that he can have by June 1. He refuses, saying he needs another month to save money, and then he goes on a shopping spree this weekend spending almost $400 on a new summer wardrobe. Every Tuesday, he has his son so he also watches DD to keep me from paying for daycare for one day out of the week. Today he told me that he doesn't want to do it anymore because we have to start making the break. I totally agree...so then just GET OUT!!!

Honestly, when I see him buying all of this shit, new clothes, a new scooter for his kid when he JUST got a 4-wheeler 2 months prior, a new wardrobe, new video games, unnecessary shit at the grocery store that we do NOT NEED, I am having a hard time feeling sympathetic about him. Especially when if I don't do his laundry and clean up after him, I feel the ramifications and have to live with DD in squalor.

The problem is that I am not a vindictive person and I ahve a hard time saying GET OUT. Especially when I was the one who originally was going to move and I said I needed until July 1. But that was when I needed to find a job out of state and new daycare for my daughter...all he has to do is lease on eof the gazillion places around here. UHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH kill me.